Solo performance?

Today I was supposed to play at a club for audition night. And I am so terrified that I asked my contact if I could have the audition on another week instead. I only realized just now how weak my voice is as a solo performer. I was doing last minute preparations for the auditions. My plan was to do two different instruments at a time. One keyboard piece and an electric guitar piece.

I was playing and singing at the same time wearing my headphones and I can hear how my voice trembled on some of the lines. And there were parts where I jumbled my chords on some pieces too.

I knew if I go on tonight it would be a disaster. I want to perform but knowing I'm doing everything solo, I will feel naked on the stage. Even though I am using a song accompaniment thru mp3 files on the computer. It's not the same as playing with a band.

And again, with my voice, I know I don't sound as outstanding as I imagine myself to be. My heart was racing since last night, I was so restless and nervous. I can play music, but playing and singing has been a challenge for me.

I can sing my own songs with glee since I know my notes by heart, and I can safely say no matter how my voice sounds I can sing it with confidence, since it is my own song.

But doing covers is much more different. Either you try and emulate how it sounds originally, or give it your own flavor but not deviating from its essence.

Perhaps it harks back to my aborted piano recital. I have never played alone in public. Ever. I play in tandem with a guitar, I accompany a singer, but I never sang and accompany myself in public before. Never.

So, I need to polish everything in a span of seven days before I can safely say I can play solo. Good luck to myself.